>> Saturday, February 9, 2008
ANOTHER CHAPTER OF MY LITTLE FAIRYTALE.love & more heartbrks.
with people changing.
life has journey.
i learnt alot of things.
must always stay strong.
but im not.
hmm. who cares.
life is imperfects.
all happiness turn to sadness.
all love turn heartbreaks.
all hope crash.
so now all crash onto one disaster.
and oh.
i have no one.
i guess.
i have no one to hug.
or just talk.
i promise i kept it to myself
sometime i think im stupid.
idiot.
i know it will happen.
i just know.
i was never enough.
NEVER.
and people say i am.
I KNOW when i got the feeling.
urgh & it happen.
i lose a close person.
and another came?
neh,
i always thought i'll never thought i find a perfect one.
i guess.
haha.
&i guess i'll always love my sayangs no matter what.
to kak huda: i read your blog.
i'll always be by yourside.
when you need my hug,
do tell cause i need one too:)
to kak sasha: life has the bumps.
i'll nver be bored to listen.
need hugs?
rmbr you will always be the kakak i rely on.
to lily:i love our romantic talks.
:)chees.
it made me feel all better.
thanks sweetheart.
to rafeeda: thanks honey for being the friend i can turn on to.
to yasin: those working hours. & laughters.
& to my mum: who listen to my COMPLAINTS.
hees&oops.
"i need you boo,
i gotta see you boo.
with the hearts all over the world tonight.
hehe.
the journey has it.
& the tears i cried.
it made me sit.
rembering all the fights.
i wish you were here with me.
sitting here, in front.
holding me.
& saying that you love.
but i know it is just a dream
i sat at my bed.
screaming.
& i now realised it was nothing.
why could i ever bother to know you.
it just a waste of time.
& now i just realise
love is junk."
deena'
a young and stupid ass.
stuck & hurt.
10:11 PM;
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>> Sunday, January 13, 2008
& a BORING story today.a normal start.
i came to school with an ache of my stomach.
(plus im still having it now!)
P.E was okay. i just follow mr yo at the back writing down
those who run for the beep test.
lesson are most boring for some.
& some are most my interest.
*now im trying to change.
toleration. [mostly]
anger.[i guess so]
saying valgur words?. [ really think so]
well today history was the best i guess.
im trying to be prepared for every lesson of everyday.
its hard.
i know.
i guess i got to try it.
dont you think so.
- i hope people not to do what i exactly do.
just hope.
today in lessons:
MTL-fisrt two periods can you imagine.
MTL-very boring
SC/BIO-learn cells part.
PE-guys beep test
RECESS-eat steam pao(if i spell it correctly)
PHY-learn about speed formula. & quite okay.
MATHS-ms toh absent. mr tan in charge. he teach BETTER than ms toh:)
HIST-FUN&UNDERSTANDABLE
HIST-COOL VIDEOS:)
history apparently study about world war 1.
the paris peace conference ;
about big three which consist of france,britain and USA.
no man stand and trenches.
well honestly, the videos apparently made me imagine
if i were the one who went for war and the family member of the person who went fo war,
it was touching like i watch yesterday alien vs predator;
when predator dies, so touching eventhough its like disfigured.
whuawhua.
plus the shows is kinda funny.
&cool.
okay fine. long story ehs?
deena'
trenches during world war one.
"every dignity
has a own story.
every mistakes
has its own reason.
hence
sometimes
every thing happens;
has to think."
quote by:dinah:)
10:02 PM;
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>> Saturday, January 12, 2008
so life is yet another repeat,since school started.
& ive been asking
and its seems like even begging,
for my dad to repair my computer,
& his reply: if there is ever a need to repair it, then he will.
if not he knows ill spent most of my time playing the computer;
then studying.
teehees.
well. since the first day of school,
ill spend most of my time studying.
& studying again.
apparently ive nothing to do acpt that.
plus i got goals.
goals that apparently make me really satisfied in my results.
& seems people starts copying;
like they got no motivation to follow what they like,
acpt looking at others and follow their style & their personalities,
well my idea is that they people just have no style of their own
& they just jealous of others.
another thing is, they just dont have their own NORMAL personalities.
they heard that the other friend is doing some specific thing;
& they started to follow.
dont you think is stupid.
well i am surround by them.
okay,cut that now.
& these days im sick.
yesterday dance.
A TIRING DANCE.
with homeworks and studies plus work to cope.
ive been through an aching week.
& heartbreaking week?
sometimes.
&& sometimes i thought working is best because the people you surrounded with.
just so funny .
its fun.
no heartbreaking.
& ART is great but the teacher,,
ouh good.
ejk!!
believe it or not.
kranji students will know.
p.s I MISS DAMN LOT OF PEOPLE:))
& ill try to update as soon as possible.
[no picture today]
"life is a misery tale.
with no ending bleed,
girls are not for sale.
boys treat them with greed.
i guess life isn't fair.
with all the tears,
as im waiting you there.
with all my fears.
i just really dont get it.
why must you be so mean,
so girls get up on your feet.
to what you have been.
-as we suffered enough."
wrote: dinah
2:34 AM;
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>> Monday, December 17, 2007
& yes at last.
update my blog since september 4th.
the story is my computer is spoil.
so since then i did not update nor check any mails.
i miss my computer.
boohoo.
i miss chatting too,
so it was yet to come.
need to wait for the repair.
it sucks?
hell lot.
its been long since i update
& that's is the reason why I'm blank of words.
there is a lot happening in my life now.
its weird but yet kinda freaky.
almost everything going to change.
& some already did change.
there's fights.
there's love?
there's alot going on.
& some friends are different.
& some people change.
alot of things has really become different.
& the Asian idol.
is weird.
the unexpected won.
SINGAPORE.
the small tiny dot at the globe.
the little population compared to India & Indonesia.
it is the most shocking thing ever.
the most weirdest thing ever.
still hady won.
haha.
& people say if hady wins, surely taufik win if he ever gets into that idol.
sitting here. with my butt cramp.
waiting for sasha & syikin to come back from school.
i'm damn excited for their n level results.
& yes, i'm nervous for them. (not really.)
& im here with my stomach aching.
its been long i access into internet.
so now im ending my stinking story,
deena.
update my blog since september 4th.
the story is my computer is spoil.
so since then i did not update nor check any mails.
i miss my computer.
boohoo.
i miss chatting too,
so it was yet to come.
need to wait for the repair.
it sucks?
hell lot.
its been long since i update
& that's is the reason why I'm blank of words.
there is a lot happening in my life now.
its weird but yet kinda freaky.
almost everything going to change.
& some already did change.
there's fights.
there's love?
there's alot going on.
& some friends are different.
& some people change.
alot of things has really become different.
& the Asian idol.
is weird.
the unexpected won.
SINGAPORE.
the small tiny dot at the globe.
the little population compared to India & Indonesia.
it is the most shocking thing ever.
the most weirdest thing ever.
still hady won.
haha.
& people say if hady wins, surely taufik win if he ever gets into that idol.
sitting here. with my butt cramp.
waiting for sasha & syikin to come back from school.
i'm damn excited for their n level results.
& yes, i'm nervous for them. (not really.)
& im here with my stomach aching.
its been long i access into internet.
so now im ending my stinking story,
deena.
erm hady. (doesnt interest me)
9:43 PM;
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>> Tuesday, September 4, 2007
& i just a crush on Zac and Corbin:))these holidays it has been;
erm.
kinda sick & boring.
it repeats?
some, yes.
i sat at the computer table.
playing & staring at the computer.
i guess.
watching all about high school musical.
& hell yeah, im above maniac when comes to HSM2:)
i think.
& yes at home.
i sing & dance.
all the days & nights.
oh, i just love drama.
acting? oh seriously my passion.
but i dont think ill be able to do it.
i dont know.
i think one day i try. maybe.
hopefully:)
so i got these habit of hating copy-cats.
i just really again dont get it.
be original, i beg again.
so. i dreamt of getting alot of outdoor classes.
i really do want to learn piano & other instruments.
i just dont know why,
but they inspire me more.
learn how to sing?
i dont know about that.
but i definitely want to learn every genre of dance.
& drama class.oo i love:)
gosh. am i day-dreaming or what.
they are love.
& now i realize how much i love my family more than anything
i just want to give the better to my parents,
especially my mum.
so i miss the fun with friends.
they change, or i change?
i do not know at all.
i guess i want everyone to be original.
i want to do best at academic & CCAs.
but i just trying to.
i need to buck up on my studies.
THE MISSION OF THESE HOLIDAYS.
so. thats what im up to these days.
deena'
the history i met?
the laughter fairytale.
"once upon a time,
i sat at the bench.
hearing the chime.
everything start to get sense.
& once upon a time
i started to glare.
i wanted everything to ryhme
but i just couldnt stare.
-cause everything i wanted
just did not happen to the flow
i dreamt.
someyone colour me up please."
wrote by: dinah.
i couldnt care less about you no more?
erm. yes.
12:30 AM;
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>> Saturday, September 1, 2007
& i was boredand hurt?
im not so sure.
i sat & think of everything that happened.
so what am i thinking.
hmm. im not so sure yet.
but still,
i felt the hate & hurt.
i wonder why?
& today was suppose to be jogging day.
end up. it was not.
im all messed up.
all the mood strings tangled up.
i cant seem to fix it.
do i need help ?
i do not know.
i seem want to solve it alone.
& not telling.
cause it seem i will be over-reacting?
i do not know again.
im not sure of anything.
did i do something wrong?
im losing grip.
what's happening?
im confused at everything
yet curious.
my head spin.
what can i do?
my stress out.
yet worn out.
help or not?
i guess, im yet again
nothing.
just a dirt.
deena'
& i have got a change of heart?
the story?
For I thought I knew what they meant.
Until I lost and won some,
My love today is for rent.
Those simple words I know so well.
I wish for you to know.
That just liking someone is so different.
So I will say it real slow.
Those are the words of a million feelings.
My hopes and dreams and joys.
Little girls writing love letters.
Chasing after boys.
Those are the words that I say to you.
I whisper them to your heart.
You turn and look back at me.
I loved you from the start.
-confusion of love."
6:51 AM;
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>> Friday, August 31, 2007
& cramps.HAPPY TEACHERS DAY
especially to my favourite among all favourite teachers.
it was a kinda okay and alright day.
i think.
went walk-a-thon with the whole school.
through limbang park.
and it was fun.
i guess?
the school apparently chaotic.
:)) & i love it.
cam-whoring and stuff.
the going back to primary school today was okay.
met alot of people i miss & longed to see.
i guess not?
i have no idea.
but seeing people change.
to worst
or to good?
but i still like every minute.
& i think my heart was a messed that moment?
i dont know.
it was damn tiring.
went to teck whye pri
then to kranji
lastly to chua chu kang pri.
so what can i say.
i got messed up feelings.
people do not know.
i think every day & minute.
every problems i guess never solve.
every now and then.
i always felt the hate & hurt;
every where i go,
i guess.
im still confused more than ever.
deena'
& i hate myself more.
the messed up.
"& sometime i think,
do you even care?
do you ever think of me?
do you share the same feelings?
do you have the thoughtful mind?
cause even more so i think you didnt.
well.
& even more so.
i hate my everyday feelings."
im sorry.
maybe im just a burden.
6:06 AM;
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