>> Tuesday, September 4, 2007
& i just a crush on Zac and Corbin:))these holidays it has been;
erm.
kinda sick & boring.
it repeats?
some, yes.
i sat at the computer table.
playing & staring at the computer.
i guess.
watching all about high school musical.
& hell yeah, im above maniac when comes to HSM2:)
i think.
& yes at home.
i sing & dance.
all the days & nights.
oh, i just love drama.
acting? oh seriously my passion.
but i dont think ill be able to do it.
i dont know.
i think one day i try. maybe.
hopefully:)
so i got these habit of hating copy-cats.
i just really again dont get it.
be original, i beg again.
so. i dreamt of getting alot of outdoor classes.
i really do want to learn piano & other instruments.
i just dont know why,
but they inspire me more.
learn how to sing?
i dont know about that.
but i definitely want to learn every genre of dance.
& drama class.oo i love:)
gosh. am i day-dreaming or what.
they are love.
& now i realize how much i love my family more than anything
i just want to give the better to my parents,
especially my mum.
so i miss the fun with friends.
they change, or i change?
i do not know at all.
i guess i want everyone to be original.
i want to do best at academic & CCAs.
but i just trying to.
i need to buck up on my studies.
THE MISSION OF THESE HOLIDAYS.
so. thats what im up to these days.
deena'
the history i met?
the laughter fairytale.
"once upon a time,
i sat at the bench.
hearing the chime.
everything start to get sense.
& once upon a time
i started to glare.
i wanted everything to ryhme
but i just couldnt stare.
-cause everything i wanted
just did not happen to the flow
i dreamt.
someyone colour me up please."
wrote by: dinah.
i couldnt care less about you no more?
erm. yes.
12:30 AM;
smacked me up.
smacked me up.
>> Saturday, September 1, 2007
& i was boredand hurt?
im not so sure.
i sat & think of everything that happened.
so what am i thinking.
hmm. im not so sure yet.
but still,
i felt the hate & hurt.
i wonder why?
& today was suppose to be jogging day.
end up. it was not.
im all messed up.
all the mood strings tangled up.
i cant seem to fix it.
do i need help ?
i do not know.
i seem want to solve it alone.
& not telling.
cause it seem i will be over-reacting?
i do not know again.
im not sure of anything.
did i do something wrong?
im losing grip.
what's happening?
im confused at everything
yet curious.
my head spin.
what can i do?
my stress out.
yet worn out.
help or not?
i guess, im yet again
nothing.
just a dirt.
deena'
& i have got a change of heart?
the story?
For I thought I knew what they meant.
Until I lost and won some,
My love today is for rent.
Those simple words I know so well.
I wish for you to know.
That just liking someone is so different.
So I will say it real slow.
Those are the words of a million feelings.
My hopes and dreams and joys.
Little girls writing love letters.
Chasing after boys.
Those are the words that I say to you.
I whisper them to your heart.
You turn and look back at me.
I loved you from the start.
-confusion of love."
6:51 AM;
smacked me up.
smacked me up.